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Except for me for this year. 2015 was my year to FLY and boy did I give it my all. I tried and I failed and I tried some more with some success. I love who I am, who I am becoming, who I am starting to to be without over thinking how I am being viewed. The girl who used to worry about what everyone else and their mothers thought really no longer cares as long as I stick to the core of my values of being kind, helpful and at times funny ( I find myself hilarious and during certain rare occasions other people do as well). The girl who always goes home and replays what she did, what she said and how other people reacted only does that when I am feeling worn down and exhausted. It is a trait that is hard to fight but I am doing it and I am learning to just let it go, I really really am. Which is why with confidence and joy I can announce to myself and have the courage to put in black and white as well my New Year's goal for the year. While 2015's goal is not smashed by any means I am going to continue to learn to love myself but what I really want is to be present, enjoy the moment and soak it all in. So for 2016, my goal for myself is to become to comfortable loving myself that I can sit back and just BE. BE happy, BE sad, BE with my kids, BE alone, BE a runner, BE a wife, BE a mom, BE a friend. BE anything in the moment that I am in.
A lot, of my races this past year were run IN the mile I was in. That is how I got through them. Just run mile 9 you are in mile 9. Just run mile 10 you are in mile 10. And I have decided that that is how I want to live this year. Just color with kids you are coloring right now. Just fold this laundry you are folding right now. Just soak in this laughter that is happening around you right now. I want to be open and present in all that I do and I want to soak in all of the feelings I feel. There really are no bad feelings just some uncomfortable ones ;)
So Happy New Year to you all! I am looking forward to being in the writing presence more and looking forward to connecting and communicating with a lot more bloggers in the upcoming year. What is your favorite blog to follow?